“Therefore lift your drooping hands and strengthen your weak knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be put out of joint but rather be healed.” Hebrews 12:12-13
“Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken, and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship, with reverence and awe, for our God is a consuming fire.” Hebrews 12:28-29
“And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up.” Galatians 6:9
The past six or seven months have been extremely hard. I was sick for five and a half of them and the rest of the time was stressful and exhausting. I kept telling myself to push through and it would be better the next month, but it never got better; most of the time it just got worse. I started blankly staring at walls a lot because my brain just could not process anything properly. Acting like a space case is always great, especially in public where people can wonder if you have actually gone into a coma. I wondered what I was doing it all for. A lot of the time I don’t feel like I am actually doing anything worth while. I am not involved heavily in a lot of people’s lives, just a few, and I don’t think what I do makes much of a difference. Sometimes I see it and sometimes I feel validated, but those times always seem to get run over by the rest of the time. This should not happen. Even if I don’t make or see any difference here, it will be more than worth it in Heaven. It is so easy to get exhausted and discouraged and it will continue to happen, but it is worth it.
Jesus knows all of this. He felt all of it. Our entire purpose on Earth is to glorify God and HE is worth it. I forget that too often and it makes me sad when I remember it after far too long. Our bodies will get worn out and broken, especially mine, but our spirits should not. God has equipped us with everything we need to get through life here. This is the closest believers will ever get to hell. We should not be discouraged. We should be excited. This world is the worst it is going to get for us. Doing good in it and working hard to help others and gain treasures in heaven is definitely worth just this. Horrible things will continue to happen and life will continue being hard but it is so silly to be discouraged by it. I wish it was natural for me to think that way, but it is not. So I will continue to struggle with it throughout my life; but the more I delve into the Bible and the more I work for God, the more I will remember it and be revived.
Never tire. He is worth it.